Today at church our sermon was titled “What’s in Your Hand?” As always, I think each Sunday’s messages speak to people in many different ways. But today moved me. It reminded me of so much, but specifically, when you have nothing else, God is enough!
Chris and I have learned to lean on faith so much. This can be such a scary thing, but it is the only way. Because when you listen to God’s whispers and step out in faith, you know your reward is going to be wonderful! It is amazing to look at how God’s plan has unfolded in our lives so far. During the midst of the struggle or the questions, we didn’t understand the plan. But it always becomes evident in some way. When God asks us “what’s in our hand?” he means, what are we doing in our ordinary lives that can become extraordinary. What can we take that we have and make it a miracle?
I believe that Rickson’s adoption was one of our miracles. God planted a seed long ago about adoption and that ultimately led to Rickson. But not only that, it led to our deep love and compassion for Rickson and Alani’s birth families and a desire to help them and the people of the Marshall Islands any way that we can. We use our lives and what we have been given in our hand to try to help them. As we prepare to bring Elina here to the United States for an extended visit, today’s message reminded me that by stepping out in this faith one more time, we are doing the right thing! And we have to let our faith be bigger than our fear!
Chris’s illness is also one of these examples. When Chris was sick with his first blood disorder back in 2006 I let myself ask why and I sometimes struggled. But I had six years in between his blood disorder and his 2012 blood cancer diagnosis to understand how to find the miracles in our sadness. During those six years, one thing that brought me comfort was reading about Paul and how he had a thorn in the flesh. Three times he asked God to remove this from him. But God never did and look at the amazing things Paul did in his lifetime here on earth. If Paul can persevere through a thorn in the flesh (whatever that may have been) we can overcome a cancer diagnosis with grace. God takes our weakness, just as he did with Paul, and turns it in to strength. When we were at our lowest and had nothing left, all we needed was Jesus… and HE IS ENOUGH! It brings me comfort to know God blesses our weakness. And again, we let our faith be bigger than our fear.
I felt so blessed to be sitting in the seats today and worshipping Jesus. Just last night I had another dream that Chris was sick again. That his cancer was back and he was in his final days. I don’t think that thought will every completely leave me. But as I sang my praise today, I was overcome at how amazing God’s love is. How He loves us and will never leave us. Through our steps out in faith, through cancer, through flashbacks of fear. God is here. And He is enough!
Love, Laurie
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